All Figured Out

By Sarah Salinas, Napoleon Ohio

Their smiling faces and those broken hearts no one sees

The covered traces and those open arms in shattered dreams

And he pretends he’s got life all figured out

But then again he’s drowning in doubt

And he hides his pain so no one sees

But I see there’s more than shadows in my dreams

And he avoids looking me in the eye

Because I can see what he’s trying to hide

And he admits this masquerade must end

But there’s so much security in trying to pretend

Yeah he’s the guy / everyone wonders where he’s going

And he has no idea what he’s doing

And I’m the one / no one quite hears what I’m saying

And everyone wonders what I’m doing

He asks me questions
But he doesn’t like the answers

He’s got a disease

That’s spreading even faster

And he hides his scars
But they’re so apparent

I try to speak

But he just won’t hear it

Everyone tells me to quit

That I’m just to ill-equipped

Yeah I know they’re all wondering why
As they scream “Don’t throw your pearls to the swine!”

But he means so much to me

And he’s dying in apathy

I don’t wanna see him die this way

I don’t wanna see him die